my hunky army baby's booking out tmr yay! jz now he only spoke to me on the phone for only like what five minutes? sigh. sad life. whole week miss him at night talk awhile onli. what the hell...

i think i can say our r/p is going thru a fragile phase. coz we onli meet each other for one day, jz a few hrs by right, every weekend. and if we blew those few precious hours due to some emotional or stupid hormonal swing reason, thats it. it'll be ruined and the whole of nx week's morale wd be terrible.

when we meet once a week, i can hardly find a common topic to talk to him about. i'll usually keep silent and urgh he'll be talking abt his army thingies. whereas i dun wanna talk abt work when im with him. i jz wanna talk other topics. out of this world. jz our crap. just abt us...

well its jz too bad for me that i never went thru any teenage bgr. i mean never. the type that would have gone along cool and easy. everyday together going thru every day lives ups and downs together, in sch i mean.

r/p in the adult working life is so much different. harder if u dont get the time to get to know each other a little bit more closer. personally for me sometimes that feels irritating and frustrating. im in love with this guy of mine but i dont really know him that well! i want to know him in all! i sound so impatient rite. yeah maybe i shd cool it down. take time in this r/p and patience is a virtue.

sigh...

but i want nothing more than him. my hazril. my love. my sweet face.

i hope everything goes well tmr my darling i look forward to seeing you.